Sunday, December 28, 2008
can you fucking just stab me now and I die?
Friday, December 26, 2008
I respect him for what he writes and I dont bother who he is or how he behaves.
Thats only for him to judge but not us.
Tho I have met him a couple of times but doesnt mean I know him personally.
It seems that even top blogger like him also needs to rant in his blog.
He somehow "personalized" his blog this time. Read it HERE.
He broke up.
Just alil of my reflections after reading his post(words in red are taken from his post),
" Even more ironic was the day after, when her friend texted me to ask "if he can have her". "
But he definitely felt for this~
But i can tell the girls dont think its necessary.
Isnt that the purpose of being in a relationship/marriage? yes?no?
"It feels weird being single again Having been in the dating game for 8 years almost consecutively, I kinda forgot how to be single."
Everything I do doesnt seem to be working well.
Instead of scratching myhead wondering what to do wif my freetime, I dig out evry second of my day to keep in touch/to meet her up.
Instead of looking for people to chat wif in MSN, I limit myself to her.
This kinda freaks me out.
It looks the same as the route he took;
Holy Jesus,Buddha,Allah, it has gonna be a better ending than that.
Well, SamPoh blogged bout this breakup earlier too. And here are my reflections (words in pink are taken from her post),
"Very recently he doubted me by questioning if I was after his wealth and fame."
But I am never a supporter of materialistic ideology.
I give gifts with my heart not money even if they are purchased.
And heres something which I thought I would only be able to read in fairy tales or watch in hongkong/korean dramas
"To the next person in line(when or if), he likes Japanese cuisine. Gourmet food. Skinny lattes. Ginseng chicken soup. Century egg. Eats only peeled prawns. Doesn't favor eating crab much. Avoid durian hehe. Plus he doesn't dig girls who smoke or pop. Picky indeed! His favorite color is blue :) Hates leggings on girls haha. Apples & bananas are fruits of his choice. Though not orange but drinks its juice. He enjoys... Singapore. Discover the rest later. Take great care of him otherwise I might be deeply saddened for letting him fall into the wrong hands. "
It was sure to be painful when Kenny read that
but it sure did melt his heart for seconds tsk tsk.
I doubt i could make such a list,
I can be observant but I am forgetful,
so I need a Notepad file always. XD
And I respect sam's generosity in letting go.
maybe thats what people say huh,
"If you love something, set it free"
Still...I aint that kinda person who can let go easily
(unless I am triggered to)
just couldnt escape from relationship problems.
Be it single or double
loneliness is what they complain.
two different backgrounds.
two different personalities.
two different hearts.
two different sets of thoughts.
two different ways of living.
much challenging than being single.
It takes weeks for you to adapt to single life.
but it takes years or even forever to adapt to "double" life.
In fact, you just shouldn't stop yourself from adapting when you are un-single-fied.
You, change as time goes by.
Your partner, changes too as time goes by.
Be it good or bad.
Its always something mutual.
It has to be mutual.
Yin and Yang.
For once, I am strongly against Kenny's viewpoint.
"It was not that we didn't try to make things work. I tried. We both tried."
Tried?how much effort was put in?
Tried?was it one-sided or mutually?
If its one-sided, forget it.
"Ultimately, we are two different people, with drastically different lifestyles, different ideals, different philosophies, different aims in life. But as the old saying goes, easier to move a mountain than to change a person"
You just adapt.
a BIG word.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Xmas everyone!
Theres a story behind this.
(It = The Sims+Tamagochi+Digimon+Pukimon.)
"I thought u never liked facebook?"
Unfortunately, friendster is frigging infected with
So I shifted to facebook. (friendster info updated still.)
I can be a senior in friendster.
(Maybe thats why my love for friendster hasnt faded a single bit XD)
This is what happen when you are behind 723492987439 people.
So, I was so lost in facebook so I sought guidance from the "seniors".
I was recommended to play this game in facebook called "Pet
Heres my Pet
I stopped for quite a while, until there was this Xmas card design competition
It was just for the sake of fun since I THOUGHT I have an idea.
whats with those
Those face are my coursemates' +mine.
Now you know how influential is Facebook?
Keep it away from your kids/younger siblings.
FYI, we throw a
And there was once, they came up with an idea as to throw a themed celebration instead.
Headgear is made according to the owner's pet
happy i mean.
er wokay fine.
While I was going to upload my entry, I read something very depressing.
"No personal faces should be included in the entry or will be disqualified automatically."
Well. Luckily, I was wise enough
(scroll to the top if you ve forgotten how the card looks like)
MERRY XMAS HO HO HO!
(its 10.20pm. Im not late)
"You are my greatest Xmas gift.thanks.♥"
What did I gave Horny Bitch as Xmas present?
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Study undang wokay?
im coming back.
(just a short one for today because im in the rush for this last post b T.T)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I do wish to turn back time,
to love others as much as possible...
I do hope it happens.
How about you?
Get a good rest today wokay.
Friday, December 19, 2008
This is one of the parts which I have read and I find it convincing.
WHEN A MAN LOVES A WOMAN
A man falling in love with a woman is similar to what took place when the first Martian discovered the Venusians. Stuck in his cave and unable to find the source of his depression, he was searching the sky with his telescope. As if he had been struck by lightning, in one glorious moment his life was permanently changed. He had glimpsed through his telescope a vision he described as awesome beauty and grace.
He had discovered the Venusians. His body lit on fire. As he watched the Venusians, for the first time in his life he began to care about someone other than himself. From just one glimpse his life had new meaning. His depression lifted.
Martians have a win/lose philosophy -l want to win, and i don''t care if you lose. As long as each Martian took care of himself this formula worked fine. It worked for centuries, but now it needed to be changed. Giving primarily to themselves was no longer as satisfying. Being in love, they wanted the Venusians to win as much as themselves.
In most sports today we can see an extension of this Martian competitive code. For example, in tennis I not only want to win but also try to make my friend lose by making it difficult for him to return my shots. I enjoy winning even though my friend loses.
Most of these Martian attitudes have a place in life, but this win/lose attitude becomes harmful in our adult relationships. If I seek to fulfill my own needs at the expense of my partner, we are sure to experience unhappiness, resentment, and conflict. The secret of forming a successful relationship is for both partners to win.
After the first Martian fell in love, he began manufacturing telescopes for all his brother Martians. Very quickly they all came out of their depressions. They too began to feel love for the Venusians. They started to care about the Venusians as much as themselves.
The strange and beautiful Venusians were a mysterious attraction to the Martians. Their differences especially attracted the Martians Where the Martians were hard, the Venusians were soft. Where the Martians were angular, the Venusians were round. Where the Martians were cool, the Venusians were warm. In a magical and perfect way their differences seemed to complement each other.
In an unspoken language the Venusians communicated loud and clear: "We need you. Your power and strength can bring us great fulfill filling a void deep within our being. Together we could five m great happiness." This invitation motivated and empowered the Martians.
Many women instinctively understand how to give this message. In the beginning of a relationship, a woman gives a man a brief look that says you could he the one to make me happy. In this subtle way she actually initiates their relationship. This look encourages him to come closer. It empowers him to overcome his fears of having a relationship. Unfortunately, once they are in a relationship and as the problems begin to emerge, she doesn''t know how important that message still is to him and neglects to send it.
The Martians were very motivated by the possibility of making a difference on Venus. The Martian race was moving to a new level of evolution. They were no longer satisfied by just proving themselves and developing their power. They wanted to use their power and skills in the service of others, especially in the service of the Venusians. They were beginning to develop a new philosophy, a win/win philosophy. They wanted a world where everyone cared for themselves as well as for others.
Love Motivates Martians
The Martians began building a fleet of spaceships that would carry them across the heavens to Venus. They had never felt so alive. Through glimpsing the Venusians, they were beginning to have unselfish feelings for the first time in their history.
Similarly, when a man is in lo ve he is motivated to be the best he can be in order to serve others. When his heart is open, he feels so confident in himself that he is capable of making major changes. Given the opportunity to prove his potential, he expresses his best self. Only when he feels he cannot succeed does he regress back to his old selfish ways.
When a man is in love, he begins to care about another as much as himself. He is suddenly released from the binding chains of being motivated for himself alone and becomes free to give to another, not for personal gain, but out of caring. He experiences his partner''s fulfillment as if it were his own. He can easily endure any hardship to make her happy because her happiness makes him happy. His struggles become easier. He is energized with a higher purpose.
In his youth he can be satisfied by serving himself alone, but as he matures self-gratification is no longer as satisfying. To experience fulfillment he must begin to live his life motivated by love. Being inspired to give in such a free and selfless way liberates him from the inertia of self gratification devoid of caring for others. Although he still needs to receive love, his greatest need is to give love.
Most men are not only hungry to give love but are starving for it. Their biggest problem is that they do not know what they are missing. They rarely saw their fathers succeed in fulfilling their mothers through giving. As a result they do not know that a major source of fulfillment for a man can come through giving. When his relationships fail he finds himself depressed and stuck in his cave. He stops caring and doesn''t know why he is so depressed.
At such times he withdraws from relationships or intimacy and remains stuck in his cave. He asks himself what it is all for, and why he should bother. He doesn''t know that he has stopped caring because he doesn''t feel needed. He does not realize that by finding someone who needs him, he can shake off his depression and be motivated again.
When a man doesn''t feel he is making a positive difference in someone else''s life, it is hard for him to continue caring about his life and relationships. It is difficult to be motivated when he is not needed. To become motivated again he needs to feel appreciated, trusted, and accepted. Not to be needed is a slow death for a man.
Just a personal message for my baby rie:
Rie take good care of yourself wokay.
You know at this time,
Rui would be praying that you did keep your promise last night :)
am missing you from thailand...
Thursday, December 18, 2008
believe it or not,
this is my BESTEST birthday so far - in 19 years time.
So be proud that you made a history in my mind :)
You might be wondering....
the first one to wish me?
It came in the end of November~
Try harder next time people XD
Wokay another guess for you..
you think you know?
Free movie ticket from GSC.
Beginning of Dec.
Cut the crap.
for the first time,
am getting into serious business;
the following people
for making my 19th birthday an unforgettable one :)
(in no particular order)
(forgive me if i have left out any, do leave me a message)
I had a few awesome celebrations this year.
The 1st Birthday celebration was by my wonderful coursemates.
Sorry but I do not have any photo of that day.
But it was a simple but sweet celebration as everyone was in exam mood.
FYI, we did not eat the cake, simply because
i) I struggled while they pushed my head against the cake
I was pretty sure its the second one :P
Er, but it is not important larrr cake only mar.
I was definitely surprised by the effort they put in making the surprise birthday celebration for me together with another coursemate who shares the same birthday month.
Their plan failed. BOoooo XD
Too advanced sms.
Before i was summoned downstairs,
one of my coursemates who is already back to hometown messaged me and wished me happy bday in advance. I was shocked as it was still the beginning of the month!
Note: she couldnt make it for the celebration as shes back to hometown and she thought we were already celebrating when she wished me. kakakaka.
That evening was an odd one.
I offered to drive my roommate out but he declined and took the bus instead.
I was surprised!
Note: me and my roommate ALWAYS prefer a car ride than a bus ride. HAHA.
Weird phone call.
and asked me to go down to eat the food I asked em to help me dabao.
He said, " Harlow, Rui ar, we all downstairs in the canteen, waiting for you already, you can come to eat your food now"
Note: "WE ALL" I was like O.o Why do you need so many people to accompany me to eat? XD XD XD
Anyhow, I still thank them a million for setting up the surprise party!!!
Dear coursemates:Try harder next year wokay! XD
And this is the lovely present from them.
Thanks to my dear coursematessssss.
now the booster and pillows on my bed have new partner! ^^
I made her to go jonker so to get my baby's-alike
We had a cotton candy before that.
Er sorry, correction, my sis made it.XD
1) Candy in the making
2) Sooooooo proud of her Christmas-tree-alike cotton candy.
3) SO, i buat-buated layan.
4) By the time, we were gonna start eating......
and that was not the end, I made my sis to bring me to explore a place in Klebang called The Sampan.
Note: by the time, we were there, we cant order any food anymore, kitchen closed. and I couldnt see the sea either. Dumbarse land reclaiming project which ruined my original plan.
We count-down-ed there. (sis' boi-a pilot is on flight so couldnt celebrate with her T.T) Well, my sis was kinda busying with numerous incoming calls when the clock struck 12. I received a couple of smses. good enough though. The expected and unexpected. Well, sis if you are reading this, I am sorry for da home-going part kay. And thanks for being understanding though. Still, thanks dam much for helping and guiding me along(till now)!You made "US" happen! XD
AND not forgetting my sister for her lovely pressie!
Thanks sister ^^ alooot.
It was a heart-warming celebration as I havnt met them for quite some time.
Time flies, many went overseas, and many more to go. *deep sigh*
We did the usual China-gang-do-thing-thing.
They treated me at Windmill.
(Side story: I was so stupid to thought that mixed grill=chicken and fish. dammit, I gave away my lamb and beef T.T)
(Something Im not good in -_-)
And they gave me two scary monster-looking pressies this year which looked like this.
I tell you.
they are HUGE.
(THANKS A MILLION THE KAKIIS YO! It must have cost alot tsk)
It is like the mutation of Pukimon.
I dint buy any of those.
They are all pressies.
From left: size S - Coursemates(2008),
size M - Coursemates(2007),
size L - Sister (2006),
size XXL - X high schoolmates(2008).
But this one I bought myself. LOL
no more spongebob plushie for me next year wokay?
I have gathered all the sizes already.
you can find something bigger than this...
Didnt you notice that I skipped 3rd celebration?
Didnt you notice that I didnt mention how did I celebrated my exact birthday?
With who I celebrated my exact birthday?
What pressie I got during my exact birthday?
im gonna tell you now.
which is also on the exact birthday of mine,
I received "something" which money can NEVER buy,
"something" which is sweeter than anything else,
"something" which only exists as one,
"something" you cant have..
which I think ONE would be more than enough.
(I accept no more "biggest present" ^^ )
Mah baby's companion on my birthday means more than anytg else.
(b, "not-so-big" aite?= P Thanks so much for everything.)
rie, if you are reading this, you should know i mean it ^^
4 tickets for 2 persons.
sour yet sweet.
something that shall always be remembered.
The date b XD
Thanks everyone for making my birthday
Hey , people out there~
you know who you are...
Monday, December 15, 2008
I have no idea how they do their research on this but I do find horoscope analysis is accurate most of the time.
This is mine.
There is a few Sagittarius who is a private person as well, but you could see that he will be ahead of his friends. He will knows what is the best seller book, what are the top 10 hot hit of the week. The hottest movies showing now, he must have already seen it.
He hates routine, It makes him bored. He likes to get to his goals and succeeding in doing so is his true reward. Money making is O.K. but it is not his true joy, for he can easily spent them in a short while. They say if you want the truth, go and ask Sagittarius. They are right, you can ask him and he will tell you all the truth and very straight forward. Even he may speak bluntly, his friends loves him. If you have problems, all your friends may feel sorry for you, but Sagittarius will be the one who will give you a helping hand first and even expect no return favor. That's why he is a real charmer even sometimes big mouth.
When he is mad , he can be quite fierce but quickly dissolve and easily forgotten. He is not a person who will take a revenge, so if he say he going to burn down your house, you can relax. He likes compliments and sweet words, so you can manipulate him easily. If he knows you are not sincere, you will totally become meaningless to him.
Some Sagittarius are gifted musician, or singer. He is a happy soul, has a good humor and has lots of jokes. He loves freedom, lively and very energetic. If he is working, he will take his job seriously. He likes to travel, likes to see new exciting places. Going out or traveling make him happy.
Sagittarius man is like a free bird. He lives as if everyday is Sunday. He will hardly be in a bad mood, but if he is in a bad mood, you will better leave his sight. If you want to talk to him in such mood, try to avoid issue of commenting his life. He flirts like other man, but he has a built in brake.He falls in love as easy as he catches cold, especially if she is cute, funny and she has a strong personality but once he is in love, that's it. No one can tell how long he will be in love each time. If you want to really hold Sagittarius man, act like you are in an adventure movie. At all time, you should make yourself lively, tells him some jokes, always be cute so that it will ease up his allergy to others a bit.
* Loyal and generous
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Influential in organisations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialise
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and accessories. Being different is what she loves.
If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments, but not too much.
She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader. She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition.
She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic.
She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills.
She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.
* Fun to be with
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Concern about people's feelings
* Very emotional
* Tempramental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Caring and loving
* Treats others equally
* Strong sense of sympathy
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* No difficulties in studying
* Loves to be alone!
* Always broods about the past and the old friends
* Likes to be quiet
* Homely person
* Waits for friends
* Never looks for friends
* Not aggressive unless provoked
* Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
* Loves to be loved
* Easily hurt but takes long to recover
* Overly concerned
* Puts in effort in work
How true was that? you judge :)
If you want to find out about yours or your loved one/s,
leave your email address,horoscope & gender as a comment.
and I will send it to you as soon as possible :)
Sunday, December 14, 2008
The huggies that empower me all this while.
The day when I own her officially...
If you ever thought that the idea of
"rearranging the alphabet so to put the 'U' and 'I' togetha"
I have just proved you wrong.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Note: this is a scheduled post. I am not even in front of my comp at this time! HAHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
MY GREATEST SISTER
TOM DELONGE (blink 182)
AMY LEE (evanescence)
OUR VERY OWN
"I,therefore,declare today, 13th december 2008 as a public holiday for my loved ones!"
Note: www.ruionkoh.blogspot.com is doing this for the second time...
this was the 1st time...Click HERE to read.
And click HERE to check out which celebrities do you share your birthday with.
Hint: this year's will be very very very very very very very very
haijor i mean like 32746279478243 times very DIFFERENT
from any birthday I have had.
It would be 34877923692374 times much more meaningful.
Clock hasnt even strike twelve when Im typing this.
But,my heart is already jumping+dancing like its7pm tomoro now.
Ask my sister, she was amazed by my excitement. XD
STAY TUNED for the surprise XD XD XD XD
Friday, December 12, 2008
DO YOU REMEMBER THE HALLOWEEN POST WHICH CAME ALONG WITH THIS "GUESS-WHO-IS-THIS-GAME?" . IF YOU HAVNT, CLICK HERE
And I think this is the most ridiculous answer.
Spectre : Is that the tranny version of you?C4 you! (he meant me -__-)
And the answer is....
*jeng jeng jeng*
Click HERE, as Diese will tell you more about it! XD
(Sit house shake legs watch cartoons)
By the way,
Here r some updates regarding my finals.
2. My marketing lecturer is so kind that he mistakenly gave us the wrong scope for our marketing paper (He gave us resit paper's scope)
3. I slept 2 hours the night before marketing paper(9th), sleepless nite for econs paper(10th) and 2 hours for ICT paper(11th)
4. Just to let you know that, hand phones are not allowed in exam hall.
Itu melayu gang.
"Yo yo yo"
Our very own lao fox.
"KaWaIi nEhH? *puff cheeks* xixixixi.Me iS cUtE mAR?"
Do you remember the number one?
7. I am still having nightmare with that way-too-
( I have tried my best to photoshop it for you to imagine as i cant google any combination of these, this is way too modern)
And yes ... she was sitting for exam.
i) She was clubbing till Thursday' morning. And she went for exam right away.
(Er, anyone went Barcelona or MOS on da Wed nite? seen her?)
ii) She was heading for a daytime clubbing after that morning paper.